We all have bad days. It's hard to believe that's true when you're on social media, isn't it? We don't snap pics of ourselves while we're disciplining our children. A mistake is made at work and our boss is angry with us. No one is there to photograph the feelings being telegraphed on our face. You're writing checks to pay the bills and maybe there isn't enough money. Who's there to capture that emotion?
A big part of my business is to bring light and joy to people, whether it's through photographs of children or through my flower photography. I'm in several bands as well, including a duo that plays music to seniors in retirement homes or rehabilitation facilities. While I'm performing, I'm "on." I love music and I want to show it through my body language. What could be better than bringing joy to people?
Well, Saturday I had a no good, very bad day. Things weren't right with my youngest son which meant things weren't right with me. I thought I would try something different to deal with my feelings. I set up my camera on the tripod, tears streaming down my face. I wanted to capture how I was feeling in that moment. Of course, something happened as one would expect: I stopped crying. It took several shots to get a photo that was properly in focus because I was just using my hamper as a stand-in. I became so focused on what I was doing that I was lifted at bit out of my sad mood.
I'm sharing one of the photos I took while feeling so low to say: I see you. For all of those times when you're scrolling through Facebook or Instagram and it seems like everyone has life figured out and everyone but you is happy: you are seen. For those days when you feel like your best isn't good enough: I understand. And please, if you're feeling so low that you can't see a way out, reach out to these kind folks at the National Suicide Prevention line: 1-800-273-8255.